An Open Letter To The Guy Whose Heart I Broke

Is it OK to say 'Good Morning'? Cos I am writing this article at 11:00AM. So yeah, I will be hitting the big three-0 in a few days. And like I told you last week, I will be sharing lessons from my 20s just before my journey into 30s starts.

This is the eighth lesson. I hope it inspires you in some way. Happy reading!

Letter To My Ex

Dear Ex,

I know what it means to be heart broken.

It's like a knife piercing into your heart so slowly.

It's been years since I broke your heart and I still remember how much I felt bad for rejecting you.

I wanted to want you but I couldn't.
Trust me when I say that it was nothing you did. 'It's not you, it's me', so cliche, yet truer words have never been spoken.

I felt guilty every time you called. I felt like a fraud when we were hanging out together. I hated myself for leading you on.

I knew I wasn't ready for the relationship you were asking for. I had many mistakes to make and the experiences that didn't require a committed relationship. I'm sorry.
You were the most sincere and kindest guy I ever met who was interested in me.

You were a great guy. You didn't play games with me. You were straight forward with your affection for me. But, I just couldn't feel anything above the friendship level for you.

I'm sorry I broke your heart.

I'm sorry for telling you, "I don't think you and I are meant to be." It was the hardest thing to say, but I had to.

I will always love you for saving my life when I needed saving. You changed my life in a way I didn't know was even possible.

But, this is good-bye. I truly hope that I get to see more pictures of you on Instagram or Facebook, happy and smiling, with your lovely wife.

From Me,
Amaka

Me at 23.

It hurts when you can't love them the same way they do. It really hurts.

And you know the tricky thing: While the one you love doesn't love you, the one you don't love will be loving you. That was life in my 20s. Hearts were breaking everywhere.

In my book titled 'He Wasn't My Husband', there is a part solely dedicated to letters. I wrote letters to God, to my future husband, and to my future son. I also wrote letters to ALL my exes (and they are quite a number).

Thanks for reading.
See you tomorrow.

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This is a piece of #20Pieces20. We have 18 more to go. And it's looking like I'm enjoying this daily blogging thing all over again. 🙂

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Your turn:

Have you ever broken someone's heart? 

Stay inspired.

Stay positive.

Stay safe.

Written by Nwamaka Onyekachi

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