DIARY: November To Remember (2021)

2.12.21

DIARY: November To Remember (2021)

As you know, it’s been my custom every year since 2017 to share each day in November with you by a sentence or two.

November To Revival

I tagged November 2021 as “Revival”. Everything on my mind was leading me to get my fire back. For some reasons, I felt as though I wasn’t burning or even if I was, then I wasn’t burning hot enough. I was becoming lethargic and complacent in a number of things that I was too tired of using “nursing mother” as an excuse.

I can’t fast. Why? I’m a nursing mother.

I can’t attend this and that. Why? I’m a nursing mother.

I can’t do this and that now. Why? I’m a nursing mother.

Days before the start of the month, I decided to decide that this year’s November To Remember would be a REVIVAL.

At first I was in good spirits and I really enjoyed putting my plans into practice regularly. In the course of the weeks my motivation decreased more and more. I tried to catch up on what I had missed the previous days at one go. A few days ago, I finally had to admit that it was no longer possible to catch up and that I had clearly failed to make up for my intention.

In concrete terms, it had been my plan to record an entry everyday for the rest of the month. In the beginning, I wrote daily and with great dedication, but the cycle of haziness grew more and more.

Although I had told Kachi about my plan in such a passionate way that he gave a nod and clapped to encourage me, I was less and less able to motivate myself to do the planned daily entries. When I finally caught myself trying to reconstruct the past three weeks on paper - which I simply could not - I had to admit the failure of my every-day-write project.

Paradventure you haven’t seen my postpartum face in a while, this is what it looks like. 😒

It was a fail.

Whether this was because the effort of writing as an additional daily task was too much for me, or whether the project simply lacked the appeal, I can't even say exactly. I only know for sure that I am now glad that November has ended and the project has officially been terminated. Lol.

Monday 1 -

Tuesday 2 -

Wednesday 3 - Baby’s hair packed for the first time. So cute.

Thursday 4 - gggg

Friday 5 - gggg

Saturday 6 - gggg

Sunday 7 - gggg

Monday 8 - gggg

Tuesday 9 - gggg

Wednesday 10 - gggg

Thursday 11 - gggg

Friday 12 - gggg

Saturday 13 - gggg

Sunday 14 - gggg

Monday 15 - gggg

Tuesday 16 - gggg

Wednesday 17 - gggg

Thursday 18 - gggg

Friday 19 - gggg

Saturday 20 - gggg

Sunday 21 - gggg

Monday 22 - gggg

Tuesday 23 - gggg

Wednesday 24 - gggg

Thursday 25 - gggg

Friday 26 - gggg

Saturday 27 - gggg

Sunday 28 - gggg

Monday 29 - gggg

Tuesday 30 - gggg

I feel that a burden has been lifted from me. Phew.

So is there any lesson to learn from this? Maybe.

Maybe, for me, the lesson I learned from this is that even a good project that started out well at the beginning does not have to be carried through at all costs, if it does not give you the expected joy or added value.

Have the courage to PAUSE, STOP or LET GO when you have to.

Have the courage to walk away from what no longer inspires and develops you!