DIARY: I'm So Lost Without You

“Show me the right path, O LORD; point out the road for me to follow.” Psalm 25:4 (NLT). Months ago I asked God to etch this verse onto my heart, so I’d always have it with me — especially on days when I feel like I’m going round in circles and lacking direction.

I saw me running in my dream last night. And I prayed it to mean I'm running to God. Lol. Can't risk it mehn!

I'm Running 🎵

Music is a huge part of our lives and some of our most treasured, intimate and emotional memories are instantly ignited by a song or the string of a guitar.

We identify with certain songs at different times, and those tracks change significantly with our seasons.

The song can be literal or maybe the tone captures our moods. So as our our moods change, so does the soundtracks of our life express how we feel through a song.

I remember when the lyrics "I've gone too far from where I started from" in 'Can't Give Up Now' by MaryMary was a perfect caption for 2016. It was a season where my faith was tried. I struggled not to give up on God'0. I literally gave up on giving up.

Right now, this one captures my season:

[Verse 1] 

When you speak to me
I have direction
but I woke up today
and you ain't said nothing
which way do I go
and tell me what do I do
but I will never know
if I don't get to you

[Chorus] 

so I'm runnin
if I can't walk then I'll crawl
and I'll get up if I fall
gotta get to where you are
so I'm runnin
and I won't stop for nothin
it's hard but it's worth it
when it's you Lord that I want

[Verse 2] 

Lookin and lookin
said I'm just trying to find you
feels like a dead end
I'm so lost without you
but I'm feeling desperate
and I don't wanna feel this
I need a solution
and walking just won't get it

[Bridge] 

As the deer panteth for the water
so my soul longeth after thee
you alone are my hearts desire
and I long to worship thee

('I'm running' by MaryMary)

If you've never heard it, here is a video:

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Someone who is running is either running away from something or they are running in pursuit of something.

The reality is, there are times in our lives when we, as runners are facing the wrong way, full of amazing potential and seemingly headed for greatness, but sprinting off in a direction without paying attention and completely wasting years of dedication, effort, and losing our chance for success

When we are running in the wrong direction, it doesn’t matter how fast we are, we are still going the wrong way!

So, sweetie, are you running in the right direction?

On your mark, get set, Jesus!

I'm in a season where I have to make choices. And I don't want to choose blindly without directions. 

Which song currently captures your season?

Posted by Nwamaka Ajaegbu 

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