Dear Diary, This Is To One Million Souls

Like I told you yesterday; I also write this piece with swollen eyes and dried tears. The tears have stopped flowing but the traces are visible. What I'm about to share with you today radiates from a heart flooding with peace and joy.

I Will Wait For It

It's 4 am. I woke up crying. The fear is creeping back in. The memories all come flooding in so quickly. My pillow is soaked. I can't even stop the flood of tears from streaming down my cheeks.

It's all happening at once. So many emotions. So many thoughts. Feelings of anxiety. Feelings of victory. Feelings of the unknown and feelings of the known. Which is scarier? The unknown? Or the known? Knowing what once was. Knowing the fear, the loss, the pain. Knowing that the result was close by. Seeing the hope painfully built slipping away. Feeling so certain yet doubting the possibility.

I've been at such point before. Not once. Not twice. And at those points, I was beyond amazed at the turnout of events. God is up to something, again.

At one point, it reached about 100 souls.
At another point, it reached about 1000 souls.
I should say that the next would reach about 10,000 souls. Right? No!
I will not settle for anything less after going through WHAT I am going through now. This is not the point where about 10,000 or even 100,000 souls would be said to be a miracle.

Here's what my payer sounds like now;

"Lord, I thank You for CHOOSING me. Thank you for SCRIPTING my life. Thank you for HELPING me on this journey to fulfilling purpose. Thank you for the souls that you have blessed through my testimonies, my stories, my life. 

Lord, thank You for giving me the passion and gift to share. Sometimes it's hard but You have been my Source, my Strength, my Reason. 

Lord, I see what You are doing in this season. I know You are aware about this point I'm at now. I believe this is leading to the BIG story. I trust you to fulfil your PROMISE. You are faithful. You have done it before, and You can do it again. 

This time, I want it to reach one million souls. If you will not give me one million souls, then we have no deal!"

This may be foolish . . . but I would love to GROW in faith, grace and wisdom through this season. It may even be daring but I would love to SEE God working through my struggles and testimonies. After all, this life I live belongs to Him. I am not afraid to Live Out Loud. LOL.

His reply sounds like:

Remember Hannah got her joy back before she got her prayers answered. Be joyful. God is still God.

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Written by Nwamaka Onyekachi

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